Today is a good day.
I have not spent too much time writing in the last 6 months to a year,
and keep telling myself I want to. But,
not everyone goal is intended to be accomplished as we want them accomplished,
some take more time, others are forgotten, and some just never accomplished.
As with wanting to write more, setting a goal to do
so, and not accomplishing it, there are other goals that I can say I have
accomplished. For this blog, I refer to
my health.
In the last 4 years, I have been in 3 Car
accidents. I have broken my wrist,
several fingers (note to self, don’t hit walls or trees), Detached my triceps,
broke my back, sprained, and generally hurt all over. I was diagnosed with, although not
officially MS, three side illnesses that are caused by MS. MS tests have been inconclusive, and I refuse
any more…lol. But, this causes all kinds
of dizziness, vertigo, nausea, nerve pain, fatigue, stomach problems, and a
crappy overall existence.
On top of the physical pain, there is the mental
pain. In the beginning of all of this, I
was going through perhaps the worst depression I have ever faced in my life,
and someday I will write and share some of those experiences. Not to mention all the little depressed
episodes sense then… the Joy of bi-polar.
But there are bright sides to it… I think
And right at the plateau of all of this ciaos in my
life, my wife and up tell now the love of my life gave up on me… Although, in
her defense living with someone going through the above would destroy all but
the strongest of people, and I try very hard not to hold it agents her.
But, the significant thing is that I feel better
today than I have in years. And for this
blog, I am referring to the physical health, although I feel the same about my
mental health, and maybe will share that later.
Tonight, 2-5-13 I ran 1 mile flat out at the gym.
I started 4 years ago tipping the scale at 368
pounds. My home scale never said that, but
the Dr Office did. Today, I currently am
down just shy of 100 pounds sitting at 275.
I did get down to 260 prior to surgery, and will be back down soon.
I started my day out today, sitting on the toilet
holding a bucket because I couldn't stand, and wasn't sure If I was going to
throw up or not. The MS, it sucks real
bad. The aches and pains, the
surgeries.. But today, I ran 1 mile flat out in less than 10 minutes even though
I started it so bad. Not a big deal to
everyone, but it is a monument to me.
The fatigue I experience alone makes walking hard at times… I am more
proud of myself today then I was when I was notified of college
Graduation. I will have to celebrate
some time when the MS isn't so bad…lol
Cheers to me.
